My life feels a lot like it's spinning out of control right now even though I know in my heart it's not so bad.
Two sick kids and a home that looks like squatters have invaded it does not make me a happy camper.
I even told E that I think we should start looking at new houses.
The truth is, if I could actually get this one squeaky clean and organized again I might consider staying.
There is no such thing as work life balance. Whoever coined that phrase didn't have both. One will always get more attention and the other will suffer in the interim.
My career and my projects mean a lot to me but I could care less about any of it when one of my sweet angels needs their Mama. When something bad happens to them I am immediately consumed with guilt for taking my focus off of them for even a minute.
I know that it's not REALLY my fault that The Athlete has a sinus infection and The Princess is on the couch with a fever of 101*, but it really does feel like my fault when my babies are hurting.
When I buy Girl Scout cookies I say it's because I am supporting a great organization that I loved when I was a little girl.
The real reason I buy them is because I daydream all year long about the dark chocolate, caramel, coconut ones. Mmmmmm ridiculous, rich goodness.
I am a disgusted with myself for being such a cranky hag. But I don't even have the weekend to look forward to as redemption for my week.
A baseball meeting, a basketball game and a birthday party (all for 9 years olds, BTW!!) doesn't make much for a leisurely Saturday.
Oh,and the 8 AM meeting on Sunday. Yea, that's really the icing on my pity cake.
What's the truth about you? You can link up with Mamarazzi and Glamazon too and get it all off your chest!! That and some Girl Scout cookies could change your life ;)
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